Vincent Sferrazza

Somewhere during the process is a finished painting,  just have to recognize it.
 vjs 
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Allowing the work to evolve, directed by the parameters of the canvas at first, feeling my way thru, letting the actions find the composition.   vjs 
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Influences on my art...
Seems life works in ten-year increments, with the first and last probably the most important. I've noticed the honesty, freshness, and directness of children's art. I have also noticed many great artists did their best works in their last 10 years. Seems they opened up, softened egos, leaving a sense of their vulnerability in the painting, more connected to themselves. At a point the brush the paint, all work together subconsciously,  sensing the present inner emotions. Edvard Munch is a good example of this.
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 Painting seems to have a mind of its own with many, ever changing styles and approaches to deciding from. An artist is free to find their personal choice. Schooled or self-taught it doesn't matter in the end one has to find how and what to say. Working with the idea, in not letting what is expected predict decisions. probably a self-defeating approach?
 
100 percent conviction towards indecisiveness, seems to be one of my traits, not exactly a recommendation for 90 percent of most ways in life but maybe ideal for searching for the unexpected painting.  Presently thinking this equates: 10 percent convincing that it's a worthwhile approach, 30 percent knowing a way to get there,  leaving the remaining 60 percent to stay available for a result that hopefully becomes my own. 
 
No set method, not exactly the formula of productivity. However thru the struggles, constant changes, searching for this door, I'm learning and finding unexpected turns.    vjs
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Less about impressions of skill, more about a natural familiarity of figure and space. Similar to life, inpainting seeking and finding friends/family, feelings of comfort, discomfort, relating to a connection, staying present. To find this, couldn't ask for anything more.   vjs 
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 Always a low point losing a "wished I kept stage" of a painting. Helps a bit, telling myself, "It's a sacrificed layer towards making a better painting". Emotions stirred from the loss usually drives a deeper effort and stronger determination towards a goal for something as good.  With persistence, eventually producing a painting, not always better but just seems to feel right. 
 vjs  (for 2 examples, please see Now and Then, in the menu bar above )
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 Searching for those fresh spontaneous moments to fall into the right places. Troubled, not knowing when to stop but at the same time can’t be afraid to move forward, or backward as it maybe.
Fewer expectations when drawing makes its easier to let it be as is, in the earlier stages, keeping the spontaneous moments fresh.  Treating painting in a similar way is a goal. Acknowledging the erratic marks could be truer in the end.    vjs 
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Staying open minded and forgiving thru out the awkward results, taking chances, seeing where it can go. Hoping for unexpected turns and results. One of the ways, an artist could take towards a creative path.   vjs  
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At the very least I should finish the painting with the same manner in which I started. 
Should I study and use what artist has achieved?  Can't avoid influences of the past, nor would I want too. More interested in the sense of the personality of a painting than the method. "Keep wondering, questioning my approach"?  Should my conscious, analytic side of thinking have a bigger role and more input during the painting process? Of course, this side is active one can't help it, especially during the process of sitting with a stage for days, weeks,  months, or years in deciding if it was done, or should I continue, where do I go from there? 
In the end, it seems more natural to stay somewhat unattached and instinctual, especially in the earlier stages,  all keys towards finishing.     vjs 
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Working in this instinctual manner filled with a (back and forth)  way of thinking, its trial and error ways, all the while always questioning myself.  Definitely a roller coaster ride.     vjs 
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A defeating way to work, avoiding set methods.  The trials and attempts seem like spinning in the mud at times, a loss of productivity. Need to stop procrastinating, continue on thru the blocks. Need more Persistence. 


Scribbles of the Palmer Method eventually finds a signature, a way to stumble onto personal marks. Finding it's more important in leaving the trails and trials of the struggle.


A never ending, changing learning process, well worth the efforts.  
 vjs  (gift of the gab) feb/2017